Father Harrison’s Blog

By the Way …

Divider
Posted on: October 24th, 2014 by Father Harrison

The Matthew reading for this coming Sunday (22.34-46) is an important one, it is the climax of the tough question and answer sessions  and parable replies between Jesus and his Pharisee friends there in the Temple of Jerusalem.  This is the story of Jesus’ “final exam,” (“After that, no one dared ask him anymore questions.”) (46)

I have decided to preach the Deuteronomy reading (34.1-12).  This is a beautiful and heart-rending story, even sort of ironic.  I don’t know how anyone can read it, or hear it, without being emotionally moved.

Poor Moses.

Standing high on Mount Nebo, where he can see all of Judah stretching all the way out to the Mediterranean Sea, God says to Moses, “This land I promised, I will give it to your descendants.  I have now allowed you to see it with you own eyes, but you will not enter the land.” (4)   We can assume there is good reason the Scripture does not include Moses’ reaction.  Then God buries Moses where no one can find his body.  A great leader, one everyone knows at least by name, gone before “his time.” As with Jesus, everyone ought to know what happened to Moses in the end.

As with so many leaders, “gone before their time,” “His eyesight was clear and he was strong as ever.” (7) All the more disturbing, it sounds like Moses had a few more than 120 years ahead of him, but it seems his work, his role in moving the Israel forward was finished.  Many of us have seen a great many leaders die before their time, during our time.  John Kennedy, Bobby Kennedy, Martin Luther King, died suddenly and violently.  Other greats died of natural cases.  The death and loss of leaders change the shape of our lives; we try to imagine the world with them gone.  We fear chaos and discord will overwhelm us, with them gone  Yet we always get by, move on, eventually seeing promise and hope with clearing eyes and new strength, renewed hope – new leaders are appointed.

So it was with Moses and the people of early Israel.

 

.

By the Way …

Divider
Posted on: October 23rd, 2014 by Father Harrison

Few truths about Jesus speak to his life as being human than the fact he had siblings.  Today, the Church celebrates the life and “ministry” of St. James of Jerusalem, one of Jesus’ brothers – sibling type brothers.  After the Church adopted the doctrine of “perpetual virginity,” (regarding Mary, the mother of Jesus) early thinkers in the church thought the term “brother” of Jesus really meant “cousin.”  A great deal has been said and written on the subject of Mary having other children after Jesus was born, (in her partnership with Joseph), but the Protestant church is careful to point out that “Joseph, knew her not until after her firstborn son was brought forth.” (Call it, The Doctrine of the Great Better Tidy That One Up.)  Then, along came Joses, Jude, and Simon, all “natural” sons of Mary, and let’s not forget the “unnamed sisters” of Jesus noted in Mark 6.3, and Matthew 13.55-56.  Whatever the circumstances of his birth and ensuing cover-up(s) to protect the “innocent,” God came to earth and had to do so in the only manner human beings can arrive here – born of a woman.  What genius!  I’ve said that before, especially on Christmas eve.

A wise monk wrote today, “James was a man open to possibilities; open to hearing God in new and varied ways.  That credits James with willingness to allow the possibility that the depth and breadth of God’s love is extended to all people – all people.  We’re still working on that “genius.”

At least we can consider James had a big brother who set great examples for his siblings and all us other “brothers and sisters.” 

By the Way …

Divider
Posted on: October 22nd, 2014 by Father Harrison

Jesus suffered the sorrows of the people he encountered. Sorrow brought on by their own lifestyle, sorrow brought on at the hands of others and the oppressive forces of living on earth.  Jesus was wholeheartedly devoted to all people.  We modern’s look to our own devices – those of this world – thinking we can “out-smart unhappiness,” (those sorrows and burdens, that we suffer) trying to reduce or out maneuver them in a myriad of therapies.  There seems to be no rest for the weary.

The “rest” that Jesus promises is not the rest at the “end of one’s earthly live,” a promise we think we will only have to consider someday, later on.  Our rest, the grace and rest of the one who loves us so, does not have to come only at the “end of life.”  It is here and now – the love, healing, and peace of God among our-selves and among all the nations of the world.  His life of rest and abundance is a life very different from the one we live, yet it is ours to claim, anytime.

Of all those of this world who gave so much of themselves for freedom, peace, joy, happiness, and of course liberty, the abundance(s) of this life, there was no greater champion than Jesus of Nazareth. Living his Way is easy and light … and ours … to pursue.

By the Way …

Divider
Posted on: October 17th, 2014 by Father Harrison

I first considered preaching the Exodus reading for this Sunday, Oct. 19, 2014 (33.12-23), but not to flee from another, “Make the “terrible parable” apply to our lives today” challenge (I’m always up for that challenge).  I do, however, want point toward the Exodus lesson for a moment – I feel as though this short passage is the most important, and the most promising ancient and divine writing regarding our struggle with the promise of God’s presence in our lives.  We are not alone or the first people to struggle with wondering where God is – humans being have wondered and worried about where God is in this world since the beginning of their time on earth.

Moses says to God, “Show me the way that I may know you, and know your support.”  God replies to Moses, “My presence will go with you and I will give you rest.  I will do the very thing you ask, I will support your life – I know you by name.”  This promise just does not need explanation.

DSCF0761

Just hanging around?

Divider
Posted on: August 28th, 2014 by Father Harrison

From this Sunday’s sermon (8-31-14) …. I take notice of crosses that I see people wearing, and (of course) I wonder why they wear them.  So, one day this past week I mustered up the courage, while picking up a few things at the grocery store, to ask 5 people why they have a cross hanging from their neckPhoto06191501;  they were easy to find.  With Labor Day approaching, perhaps folks looking forward to one last cookout, the store was quite busy.

Here are their answers:

It belonged to my mother and it makes me feel closer to her when I wear it.

My husband gave it to me for my birthday, but I really wanted a new car.

I don’t know, I just wear it all the time.

Mind your own business! (insert 2 expletive words describing one’s back side)

 Because it has diamonds on it and I love diamonds; see?

I wondered what would have happened if I told them that the cross could actually still be considered what it was in Jesus’ day – a contraption used to torture criminals and other trouble makers to death – people were nailed to it and left to die; their legs broken so if they managed to get down from their cross they could not run away. If a wooden cross was not handy, or could not be constructed, a nearby tree would do just fine.  A slow death was the purpose of hanging from one from a cross; often coming from being pecked to death by large birds. “So, in a way, wearing a cross around your neck is sort of like wearing a miniature hangman’s noose or guillotine around it,” I could have said.  But I did not go that far in my little “carry your cross” fact finding mission.  I politely thanked them for their answers and made my way to the self-checkout counter (quickly) and got out of there.

Overtime, I began to hesitate, then just move on, when I came across Jesus’ “Take up your cross, deny yourself, if you want to become one of my followers,” teaching found in Matthew’s gospel (16.24)  All too often, I fear people hear Jesus saying, “Unless you’re willing to suffer and die, you can’t come along and be with me.”  I don’t believe he meant for us (or the disciples) to understand what he was saying as some sort of an invitation to risk our lives for him.  And above that, we all have some sort of “cross we assume we must bear,” poor health, addiction, depression, aging, the pressures of being a teenager, single mom, single dad, kids of split apart parents, middle aged, just plain old and falling apart, feeling unloved, not so good marriages – you know what I mean.  I also fear we associate what Jesus is saying here with an understanding that these things that bear down on us are “our cross in life,” and we are supposed to just shoulder the weight and drag it along with us until we are dead, or we are not “followers of Christ.”  Not so.

In remembrance …

Divider
Posted on: May 22nd, 2014 by Father Harrison

This weekend we celebrate Memorial Day.  Although the day is not recognized in the ecclesiastical calendar of the Church, it remains at least a moment in our civic life to reflect seriously on the human costs of wars that is demanded from those who fight them. Memorial Day began in 1868 as a remembrance of the dead on both sides of the Civil War.

I’m not one to fully celebrate patriotic type holidays within the margins of the Church and Sunday worship.  (Here me out, before you consider me “un-American” or overly protective of separation of the church and state clause of the constitution).  Church musicians have heard me say, “You may choose to play and sing most any hymn or song you wish in church,  as long as it is not a patriotic song or a show tune,” although I have a weakness for both – just not in the mix of worship.  I did not serve in the military.  I never really had the opportunity to resist serving the military.  I did, however, secretly wish my parents would consent to sending me to a military boarding-school when I was in my teens, (in odd twist of teenaged rebellion), and I flirted with the idea of applying to attend the Virginia Military Institute for college – it must have been some inner infatuation with uniforms, (that I clung to from my Boy Scout years), because I would have made a poor soldier, for certain.  My father knew that.  A WWII veteran (who hardly ever spoke of his 5 years in the South Pacific) – Dad came upstairs to my room one evening (in 1968) a few days after I had complied with the required registration for the draft to say to me, “This war (Vietnam) worries me, and should you choose to make a decision that will keep you out of it, I will support it.”  Clearly, he was worried about me being a “soldier.”   Then he left my room without him or me saying a word (ever) about that moment again.  A college deferment kept me from being drafted, and as an early sense of call to an ordained vocation at age 19 went ignored, even though I visited a seminary, I don’t know, I could have missed a call by the Holy Spirit to become a military chaplain.

My parents are buried (inurned in a columbarium for 2) in Arlington National Cemetery.  (Any military service person and spouse and dependent children can be inurned there, as long as the service person served “honorably.”)  I feel good about mentioning my folks remains rest there.  It’s patriotic, reverent, revered even – Arlington is.  A phone call there will send someone out to place flowers for them on special occasions, and, of course, there is a flag placed for them on Memorial Day; and I have a pass that allow us to drive to the columbarium without getting tangled up in visitor traffic.

Arlington’s beginnings are a fascinating story, I’m sure there’s some legend and folk lore involved, but this is how it goes: Arlington Plantation was built in the early 19 century by the grandson of George Washington, and was intended to become another living tribute to George, beyond Mt. Vernon, which was still a working plantation. Through a series of family deaths and inheritances, Arlington eventually fell into the hands of Mary Anna Custis who married Robert E. Lee. They, and their children, were inhabiting the great house and 1100 acres when the Civil War broke out and Lee, turning down Lincoln’s invitation to lead the northern Union Armies, became the leader of the Virginia Militia. During an early, major skirmish outside Washington, D.C., Lee sent word to Mary that she and their daughters must flee, that the Union Army was bound to take Arlington – and they did, on both accounts.  There were a great number of Virginia Militia casualties in their attempt to “take” Washington D.C, and as legend has it when the decision about where to bury the bodies was made, it came from Lincoln’s Secretary of War (Stanton) who said, “Bury them in Mrs. Lee’s flower beds.”  Arlington became very sacred ground, and remains so today.

When I reflect on my personal tendency to keep public displays of patriotism at arms-length, I suppose it has something to do with my strong sense of the moral injury that war costs. Yet, I fly an American flag almost every day this time of year – I suppose it has more to do with the flag being a reminder of principles of freedom than it does a display of might and power.

War happens – and at great cost beyond human physical injury.  Jesus Christ, our human representation of the One God for all, breathes the Spirit of forgiveness, love, belonging, and good works, and remains with us, along-side us, here.  The Holy Spirit is a fitting remembrance of the One who said, “Love one another, love one another – at all costs.”  

I believe people, human beings, come into this life, inherently good.  Something or someone of this world causes injury to that innate spirit of goodness and, well, we know what happens.  I also believe (I simply must believe) that people wish the church to help them come to terms with their lives and help them get acquainted with their lost innate spirit of goodness, but they fear the church’s judgment and the good ol’ wrath of God – we stink of it like so much incense.  My hope for my time, for my short time as a helper in the Church, is that at least in the community where I serve, a few people will come to know the Church as a people and place that can restore their sense of goodness; as often as they need it.  IMG_20131022_121212I believe that is what Jesus had in mind (and in his heart) when he left us with another Advocate, the Holy Spirit, the truth about goodness on this earth, that exceeds all we can desire.

 

Walk on by.

Divider
Posted on: April 10th, 2014 by Father Harrison

Something I thought I would never own is a treadmill.  Never say “never.”  I know plenty of folks who own one and I’m quick to ask them how long it took before their treadmill was converted into a coat, shirt or pants rack, or a clothes drying rack; you know, the thing you hang your delicate-hand washable items on rather than over the shower curtain rod?  I take some consolation in the truth that I did not go out and purchase our treadmill.  We inherited it.   A priest colleague and spiritual brother, priest of the parish neighboring my most recent-past parish, purchased the thing.  Announcing he had no plans to move it, (was leaving it behind as he prepared to move), we hauled it home, and it sat in the enclosed back porch of our little rental house for some 9 months, without a foot treading upon it.  I hung a coat on it one day, and said a prayer of reconciliation that I’d be forgiven for all the tongue-in-cheek remarks I made to other well-meaning and potential exercisers who lay their robes on their treadmills, blocking their pathway to better health.

Truth be said, our treadmill would not work after its long haul to our house. “It’s not getting power to its motor,” I said, “Perhaps it’s the fuse.”  I removed the fuse, studied it carefully, set it down, and let a couple more months go by.  After a trip across town to the Sears Repair and Parts Store, the fuse was ordered.  I forget why I waited so long to get one. The fuse was delivered through the mail, and the delivery fee cost more than the fuse.   “I have the fuse,” I announced arriving home from the post office one afternoon.

Within minutes we were on our hands and knees trying to remember where it was supposed to fit.  “There, it fits,” I said, attaching the fuse to the only loose wires I could find, “Plug it in and let’s see what happens.”  “You’re a genius,” She declared, “It works!”  “Blast,” I thought to myself, “It works.” A couple of hours of shuffling “back porch stuff” around, She set our “walking shoes” next to the “rare-‘n to go” treadmill.   “We have a nice view of the back yard, we don’t have to dodge traffic, there’s no need to bundle up, and we could both use the exercise,” She said, with great enthusiasm.  “Yes, you’re right,” I replied, noticing there are already hooks on the walls of the porch to hang plenty of coats and shirts and pants on.

One afternoon, a few days later, I stepped into and laced up my walking shoes, set my trusty mount’s speed on “minimum” and began walking – to nowhere.  My mind went back about 12 years ago when I kept a membership at a health club.  There I was in the proper exercise clothes, real running shoes, about 20 pounds lighter, pushing up the speed on a treadmill (way beyond minimum) to keep up with the other fit people there. Some listening to music through a headset, some reading a book propped in front of them, some watching a bank of televisions hanging from the ceiling; CNN, stock market reports, Oprah, As the World Turns.

About 3 minutes into my “walk to nowhere” I thought, “This is too boring,” stopped the thing, got off and went looking for a book.  I grabbed my Book of Common Prayer, remounted the thing, re-set its speed to “minimum” and opened my prayer book to page 585: Psalm 1.  It read, “Happy are they who have not walked in the counsel of the wicked,* nor lingered in the way of sinners, nor sat in the seats of the scornful!   It reminded me that we all have been on a walk these past few Lenten weeks. We have been walking with Jesus, in and around the “counsel of the wicked” (those plotting against him).  He has led us into the path of sinners and non-believers where he taught, and healed, and preached, and resurrected, but we did not linger; he gave his message and moved us on.  We have celebrated his birth, witnessed his baptism, his Transfiguration, became his followers; all the while others along the way scorned him, held him and us in contempt, sneered at him.  We promised to follow.  He set his face on Jerusalem, dragged us along with him, we have seen some powerful stuff.

This coming Palm Sunday morning we will follow him triumphantly into Jerusalem shouting and singing, “Hosanna in the Highest; blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!” only to suddenly blend into the crowd ourselves, and for or own safety’s sake we will shout with the others, “LET HIM BE CRUCIFIED – CRUCIFY HIM!!!!  How could we, how could we?  How could we so quickly turn and walk with those who plotted against him, mingle among those who do his teachings harm, did him harm, sit among those who mock him, even deny we know him?  How could we.  So its one more walk along the road with Jesus again, and it’s not leading to nowhere after-all.  What he was telling us all along is true after all.  He was handed over, and he is dragging a cross, (his cross), along the road to the hill shaped like a skull where they crucify criminals for all to see. “Happy are they who have not walked in the counsel of the wicked,* nor lingered in the way of sinners, nor sat in the seats of the scornful.  Happy are they, who just walked away.

DSCF1622

 

 

“When You’re Nobody’s Child.”

Divider
Posted on: March 27th, 2014 by Father Harrison

This is the time of year I often take stock of what’s going on inside my head, almost to the point of considering a whole-life overhaul.  My checking-in with myself has nothing to do with the late-winter blues, the Ides of March, mud season, or my favorite trout stream being yet a little to cold to stand in.  It is not the effect of the Worm Moon (the traditional name for the full moon of March), or disappointment with any perceived failure at keeping a particular Lenten discipline.  This time of each year the death of my parents, and a deeper recollection that they are gone, intensifies a sudden need to take some control of my own aging process.  Becoming “nobody’s child,” losing both mother and father was a turning point in my adult life.  Sharon Begley wrote a short essay in the April 3, 2000, publication of Newsweek magazine titled “When You’re Nobody’s Child.” After reading it I cut it out and have since kept it where I can find it.  She wrote the death of a parent(s), hits the baby-boomer generation harder because we came of age in a “period of optimism and unlimited horizons.”  And we know our parents “worked hard” to create that sense of optimism and unlimited horizons that they did not have.  My dad died first; twenty five years ago this month.  A victim of cancer, he was only sixty-eight years old.  Mom missed him so much she kept his clothing in his closet for nearly a year after he died.  One day over lunch she announced she was getting rid of his things that week.  “A new boy-friend moving in,” I quipped?  After pausing for a moment she put down her fork, folded her hands and replied, “No, I’ve smelled his scent out of all his clothing, I’m ready to let them go.”  We sat in silence for what seemed like a long time. With our appetites gone, we left the table and together emptied his closet and dresser drawers, folding and packing it all up in a reverent silence.  Three years later, Mom was diagnosed with cancer; she died at home within two years.   After she was gone, I joked about being an orphan until I read Begley’s essay and it really set in that I was indeed “nobody’s child.”  The people who knew me best, loved me unconditionally, the two who created me out of their love and knew my earliest history by heart, were gone.  Begley went on to write that baby-boomers have a ‘habit’ of turning every one of life’s milestones into a “consciousness-raising opportunity.”  Yep, that’s me.  My consciousness regarding life soars every March.  Dad’s death came in March, his death was my first brush with the death of someone I knew intimately, and I was with him when he died suddenly and without warning.  Because of my vocations in life, first as caregiver, now priest and pastor, people said over and over, “It was so good that you were with him when he died.”  No one said, “I’m so sorry you were alone with him when he died, that must have been awful.”  Standing there at his bedside, with no one between me and his grave, death came as too much of a shock to be smoothed over by a belief or fantasy of afly-fishing-picture scriptural promise of immortality.  I recall that now, every time I stand in vigil with a family for their dying loved one.  Death is awful, and we are all left wondering about life after death.  It’s enough to make one take stock of what’s going on in their head, even consider a whole-life overhaul.  During one beside vigil a few years ago, I asked a dying nursing home patient I had gotten to know well if there was anything I could do for her before I left for the day.  Propped up in her bed, wearing a frilly bed jacket, with her thick, wavy, snow white hair brushed and combed flawlessly as to be beyond criticism, she motioned me closer and whispered to me, “I’d like just a taste of a Pina Colada.”  I looked over my shoulder and behind me in the direction of her two daughters.  Both had their hands folded and eyes closed thinking their mother and I were praying.  I whispered back, “I’ll be back in twenty minutes.”  “I’ll get rid of them,” she said.  “A pina colada in a plastic cup with a lid and straw to go; hold the little umbrella,” I told the barkeep at Caddy’s, my local pub.  “It will be hard to plead ‘no I wasn’t’ drinking and driving officer’ with this one Hare, said the barkeep.”  “It’s a medicinal pina colada,” I shot back, “and make it snappy.”   My elderly friend took a long pull off of the straw, swallowed deeply and sighed happily.  “You’re a saint,” she said, holding my hands in hers.  “Now you know I have to perform two documented miracles before I’m beatified, my dear.”  “Getting a Pina Colada past my two teetotaler daughters, that’s one,” she said.  She spent the next few days saying her good-byes.  We all know what is said about death and taxes; they’re inescapable.  That’s why preparation for both, if possible, is highly recommended.  In spite of the personal head-games I play this time of year, eventually my tendency to live life “heart-over-head” returns, renewal becomes my buzz-word of the day, and I am curious about what will come my way, every day.

Now what!?

Divider
Posted on: March 25th, 2014 by Father Harrison

Photo10091114We are a people today who are assaulted daily with the message that everything might fall apart at anytime. And in some cases, the message is truth. It only takes a bit of ice on a road or a few (human) cells dividing out of control to steal away our loved ones. The daily news headlines seep into our consciousness pushing us to lock our doors even while we are home, hold our purses and wallets a bit closer on the street, and worry about who may be carrying a gun to a school, today.  Fearfully, we collect the day’s news stories as warning signs, constantly telling us which paths and places to avoid, until finally we are stuck in our “safe” zones, limiting our activities, our relationships with strangers, locking up everything from everyone, including our places of solace and worship. We end up spending so much time guarding our health, our possessions, and our safety, that we miss the merit of letting go, and wandering a bit, (straying away from the “usual and normal”) through this life.  If Jesus’ life is our model, we dare not (we can not) imagine that the path set before us, is always the safe and respectable one.  Through prayer, turning some things over, and radical sharing, Lent calls us to confront head on that which stands in the way of the Way.  We could live: fearlessly, generously, free of temporary things, taking care of others.   Lenten disciplines could be additive — more time with God, more generosity to our neighbors. And no matter how you look at it, attention to these matters is rarely entirely safe.  Praying will bring awesome grace, sharing will create awesome abundance, which could lead to having faith in everlasting grace; and some folks fear even that.  In my life, in this vocation, I attract and collect stories of folks who, against all odds, have (in a sense) walked to hell with only one shoe on. The foxes (the sly and sneak-up-on-you trouble) in this world have stolen away their treasure, their health, reputations, sometimes even loved ones, yet many still give themselves over to caring for strangers and other needs that walk into their lives.  Folks with personal economic downturn, still give generously to their church and to those who have less.  People hobbled by mental illness, trauma, or addiction, manage some how to get out of their troubled selves wishing to be of help to others.  The stories and journeys of most people I meet are more difficult than mine, yet somehow many are certain of and stand firm in the way of Christ.  Jesus is so certain of his path (his way) that even kings appear to be no more than little foxes, little trouble-makers, who cannot always have the last word.  The word, (Jesus said), is always very near. Christ’s word is the sign that grace is at hand, and even his death will not get in the way of that.   In the Word of the weeks ahead we will watch him walk again; all the way to Jerusalem; all the way to the cross; most likely, with no shoes on at all.

Never too late to begin, again.

Divider
Posted on: March 21st, 2014 by Father Harrison

Well, we’re about half-way through Lent now.  Those of us who still really belong to churches that still really observe Lent (there’s still a few) we get a dose of wilderness experience every year around this time, even if it is reduced to just hearing it is Lent.  Our own worship records at St. Barnabas from over the past few years show fewer and fewer folks observe Ash Wednesday as inspirational, and few give the Lenten season little credence.  That’s OK.  At least a kernel of wisdom still exists and I’ll toss it out here: anyone who claims to follow Jesus all the way to the cross needs the kind of clarity and grit that is found only in the wilderness.  

From Ash Wednesday to Easter Sunday, (forty days, excluding Sundays) Christians are invited to do without some things they are perfectly capable of having as much as they want and to take on some behaviors that they are just as capable of avoiding -such as a taking a moral inventory or making lunch date with someone they’d rather not share a meal with.  The key word is “invited.”  The priest says in the Ash Wednesday liturgy, “Dear people of God, I invite you to observe a holy Lent …

“Lent,” it is called, from an old English word meaning “spring,” is not just a reference to the crocuses pushing their way out of the ground in the season before Easter, but also to the greening of the human soul, pruned with regret, fertilized with fasting from that which overwhelms us, spritzed with self-appraisal, and mulched with prayer.

After my own early church upbringing I was at least twenty-five years old before I learned that Lent wasn’t about punishing myself for being human, and it took me a few more experiences (in the Episcopal Church) to figure out that it wasn’t about giving up good bourbon or taking on a book or bible study.  So I really don’t blame anyone who has decided to pass on Lenten disciplines.

But if you have spent a lot of time and/or energy dabbling in whatever it takes to grow your soul without seeing any new buds, then maybe a little spell in the wilderness is worth a try, there’s some time left,  a few short weeks of choosing to live on less of more, practicing subtraction instead addition, not because your regular life is bad, but because you want to make sure it is your real life, the one God intended for you, the one you actually long to be living during your short span on this earth – are you living the way you wish you would or could?

Remember when red lights in traffic gave you a minute just to sit alone and think?  Not so any more, not with your cell phone right there in your lap, your ear, or built in to the dashboard of your car, begging you to reach out and touch someone.

The problem for most of us is that we cannot go from setting down the cell phone to wanting to hear the still, small voice of God in our ears.  If it worked like that, churches would be full and Verizon would be out of business.  If it worked like that, one’s Lenten wilderness would seem to be only about twenty minutes long, a walk in the park, a piece of cake – chocolate.

What we have instead are forty whole days (excluding Sundays) for finding out what life is like without the usual commotion.  Once you take the earbuds out, silence can be really loud.  Once you turn off the television, a night can get really long.  After a while you can start thinking that all of this quiet emptiness or, worst case, all this howling wilderness, is a sign of things gone badly wrong – devil on the loose, huge temptations, no help from above, God gone AWOL, not to mention the spiritual and scriptural insufficiency to deal with“things.”

But if you remember to breathe, and say your prayers (say the prayer that always works) then nine times out of ten you can make it through your first night with no extra bread, (chocolate)DSCF1917 power, I-things, or protection.  You can get used to the sound of your own heart beating and whatever it is that is yipping and yapping and scratching outside your door.  You may even be able to sleep a little while longer, and wake up happier to be alive than you can ever remember.

Never too late to begin, again.